After my biopsy results which were good not great but good I should be happy… ..But im feeling a rain cloud over my head… yes of course I'm pleased but my internal dialogue is saying things like… Ticking time bombby the time we know it will be too late*just remove the whole flap (huge operation… Continue reading Why I will never be truly happy.
My Etsy Shop. To Donate To those of you that have been part of my journey from the beginning you know that I enjoy writing, and yes at times my writing hasn't and hasn't been, let's say polished. I've been tired, I've been very unwell but I still wanted to get the words out there.… Continue reading I need your HELP
Having a chronic illness or two it can be impossible to be positive and happy - or so you would think - this is how I see it - how I try and stay positive - how I keep smiling through pain and hard times
My yearly cancer check-up was this Sunday, it was an overflow clinic hence the weekend. I saw Mr Fasemade who’s the boss man – i.e the new Mr Moss. SOOO, where do I start, I have been aware of a white patch on my tongue for a while, it’s not sore or gross looking. It's… Continue reading What does this mean? I Cannot Go There…Not Again
So my last post didn't have the desired effect, the effect I was going for was "wow its been a year, how things have changed" instead I had "is this still how you feel??!". Which I refuse to answer as, I have always said my blogging is me writing down how I am feeling in… Continue reading Half term….part 1
MY FIRST EVER POST Things were looking up !! then it all went to …… FEBRUARY 15, 2013 MY CANCER AND ME Im not sure where to start so i guess i will start with the begining of this year !!!On the 4th Jan 2013 I recall having a huge headache so bad i put… Continue reading One year since diagnosis, This is an exact copy of my first post
So since my last post ive had my birthday, Im 31 it was a very anti climatic birthday. As this time last year I had a numb tongue and had no idea what was to about to happen, then later in the year I truely wondered if I would have another birthday or if i… Continue reading Burger and chips with lashings of ketchup
So this was yesterday ...So i lost it in the middle of Sainsbury's, G was being indecisive about something and i saw red shouting 'its not like I'm gonna bloody eat any of this, just bloody pick' with a few bleeps in there for good measure. To be honest i think its been brewing for… Continue reading Volcano Stephanie
I haven't blogged for ever and I keep getting asked if I am ok as I haven't blogged - I am ok - in my own way ! I thought I would start with a quick run down of whats been going on I am seeing Mr Moss 4 weekly and at that appointment I… Continue reading Recovery? (arm pic but not as gross anymore)
Its been a long old time since I last blogged this is mainly down to feeling thoroughly rubbish - which I more recently I found out was due to having an infection. A week ago Friday I was rushed into hospital with a temp of 40.6 and I was totally out of it ! On arrival… Continue reading Im back !
It seems like ages since I have updates – I actually think its 4 days which I guess in blog terns is quite a lot. Truth be told I have mostly slept since my last blog. I mean that literally all I seem to do is sleep, one day I went for a nap at… Continue reading Still smiling – but with help (arm pic)
Well friday, after seeing the palliative care doctor (not end if life, but symptom control), who added as drug to my syringe driver and gave me the ok to go home. This is Sarah the Dr I saw and she was THE kindest doctor, she was amazing and I even loved her dress (it was from… Continue reading As weak as a kitten…
I have been thinking about this a lot recently and it was dragged kicking and screaming to the surface today, when we took the children to MacDonalds and I say and cried - not coz i love the food, although i did love a chicken sandwich meal, but I cried because I cannot eat - my last actual meal was… Continue reading What my furture holds
Who would have thought it - i certainly didn't - its seemed forever away in the beginning... but I'm there - although i cannot take all the credit - i have had a lot of help. I did have some bad news this week thou, friday i has the speech and language therapist (SALT) show up ... she asked how… Continue reading HALF WAY……
I can honestly say I have only cried a handful of times since diagnosis and that includes when i was told and even after surgery ... see i don't like crying, i worry i wont stop or i will loose control. but tonight i am in a lot of pain, my back isn't liking the bed that i lay on for… Continue reading So … I cried