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Being a better person ??
Since my cancer I have had an urge, a need to make things better. I think it’s the “live life to its fullest” type theory.
But what is a better life? Is it being more popular having more friends ? Is it doing crazy things like sky diving ? Or is it just being happy ? And if it’s the latter, can anyone be truly happy all the time?
I’m working on the theory, remove stress and I will be happier, unfortunately I cannot remove the children, dogs and husband as that tends to be frowned upon! I guess I don’t have the same stress of other people, I don’t work, I don’t have a busy social calendar, but I have health related stress and issues. I have decided i must find an alternative ways to reduce stress.
I am aiming to do at least 10 minutes of yoga a day and I’m planning on learning to do meditation, in fact I have signed up for a course in meditation; it happens to be something I have always been intrigued about. I am also trying desperately not to hate myself and my body, I have terrible self-image issues and rarely feel comfortable looking in a mirror, which unsurprisingly has been made worse by numerous scars and swelling etc. I am my own worst enemy, I am plagued with self-doubt about literally everything. It’s so ridiculous that i have even managed to talk myself out of attending the Queens Garden Party !! Thankfully I have come to my senses and have a wonderful dress and im now looking for a hat.
Lots of love and hugs to everyone to needs it. Still smiling
I don’t think this is the hat.
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