So since my last post ive had my birthday, Im 31 it was a very anti climatic birthday. As this time last year I had a numb tongue and had no idea what was to about to happen, then later in the year I truely wondered if I would have another birthday or if i would see one of my childrens. I felt in some way there should have been a fan fair “yayyy your alive” but I guess its not the done thing.
For my birthday G got me a galexy tab3 which im currently using by the way, hes really been great through all of this, making allowances for my tiredness, helping me with my meds and feeds. Who knew our marriage would go through so much, him being my carer *again* (im refering to my pelvic surgery and all the problems), 9 house moves, 2 kids and 2 dogs.
Ive been trying to eat more not quite burger and chips with lashings of ketchup but I did manage to swallow the tinyist bit of a chip, yes it was aided by a swig of water. I tried to have some pasta bolognese, I spent a good ten minutes cutting up the pasta ready to eat, I had taken my pain killers in advance. I managed probably a table spoon of food, or so I thought it turned out half was in the roof of my mouth and the rest was just a little down my throat. The end result wasnt pretty, and left me feeling really low, wondering why bother. Its very hard seeing food you used to love, taste them and they are horrible or actually cause pain. I could really do with some help swallowing from speech and language, but it appears in on the list.
I have my sewing mojo back and have discovered something called crazy quilts, and have started to make a quilt I will share a few pics on my Facebook page.
Oooh I havent update on the torture tool aka the therabite, its gone to pot as my jaw pain had been bloody horrible it seems to be going up into my ear, its enough to stop me in my tracks.
Friday im off to see Mr Moss with no major panics or worries … maybe that means something
Still smiling and doing good
Before I go does anyone want to go to http://www.sewingshow.co.uk with me…..?