Cancer, realisation of diagnosis.
14th Feb – for most a mushy loved up day – for me a day of realisation a day of every emotion I have ever felt – I would be laughing and crying at the same time while texting G telling him he was a bleep bleep for not being there / here for me and for being at work !! He came home at 5.20 I had been a good little wifie and dinner was done but as was now the norm I hadn’t cooked for me – well there’s no point as I cant bloody eat it !!!
Anyways we talked and relaxed for a bit but it certainly didn’t feel romantic !! Add a whopping argument with my mother who I told needed to “cut the umbilical ” with my 17 year old sister who is her shadow – to which she replied ditto, meaning me – I had just told her I have cancer !!!!! but this is the same lady who recently said “I have my own stuff going on and don’t need yours, its not like I am your next of kin !!! ” no your only my mother !!
Needless to say I am now done. Anyway I was getting ready for bed that night and G said what’s that – looking at my breast !!! It was a misshapen breast (not in a disgusting way ) it just want right and that’s when I found a lump !!!!!
Could things get any worse ????